12 inches of Snow

Seriously, that is way too much snow. But days earlier it was brick house cold and I was miserable. I felt cold to my bones and did not appreciate my new bad habit - teeth grinding. Normally I am cold so the low twenties did not go over to well with my body. I remember back in the day when I would wear as little as possible and everything was all good. But now, are you kidding me, I wear scarfs inside the house. My nose is always frosty cold and my hand and feet are right there too. Of course, I have Anemia, did you think I was part of the undead or something. Well, yes I find that it is a very sensitive subject because it reminds me that we all grow old. Some gracefully and others not so much. Even as write this I am wondering will my fingers ever warm up? Will I stop shivering? How can I turn back time? Why are the keys blurry? Do I need night glasses? And so on and so on... very annoying to say the least. One question turns into twenty questions and the race is on. I do not understand why all these unusual thoughts and questions come to my mind. I do not understand much of anything these days. The holidays is upon everyone and I can not take it. Unfortunately, I suffer from SAD

-(Wikipedia writes this)- Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), also known as winter depression or winter blues, is a mood disorder in which people who have normal mental health throughout most of the year experience depressive symptoms in the winter or, less frequently, in the summer, spring or autumn, repeatedly, year after year. In the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV), SAD is not a unique mood disorder, but is "a specifier of major depression".

The US National Library of Medicine notes that "some people experience a serious mood change when the seasons change. They may sleep too much, have little energy, and crave sweets and starchy foods. They may also feel depressed. Though symptoms can be severe, they usually clear up." The condition in the summer is often referred to as Reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder, and can also include heightened anxiety. It has been estimated that 1.5-9% of adults in the US experience SAD. (End of Wikipedia)

The funny part is that I also know others that suffer from this in silence. They think that no ones knows, but I know because I am one of them. You always recognize home. Our home is depression.

But I would like to take this time to tell you what I am oh so grateful for:
My daughter, CCC, she is healthy and happy. She is beautiful inside and out. She is funny and loving. She is a teenager, I love that too. She is mine and I love that G*d gave her to me. I am so grateful for her happiness and growth in life and personally. I am thankful and so grateful for her, my gift from heaven!

Secondly, I am thankful for my husband, WAA. He is my King and I love him so dearly. I love all his wonderful qualities and I love all his flaws. He truly is my soul mate and best friend. I am so grateful to have such a wonderful husband. He takes care of me in all ways possible. He is caring and loving, he is honest and true, he is funny and adventurous, he is the best lover I have had. He is my rock and I love his respect and attention. He always wants me to be happy and he is a great man. Thank you G*D for sending me such a wonderful gift. I am very so grateful for him.

Lastly, I am grateful for my family - My father, my mother, my sister and my two brothers, my nieces and nephews, my cousins, mu aunts and uncles, my in-laws and my out-laws(HAHA) I am grateful and thankful that they have their health. I am so thankful for their love. And of course, I am grateful that I have my own health and that I can walk and talk and brush my own teeth and so forth. Thank you G*D for giving me all my senses and abilities. Thank you for allowing me to wake up everyday in the glory you have provided for me.

Thanks be to Him, So Mote It Be.